I Wanted A Threesome…But what if it fails?

Ever wanted a threesome fantasy? Read this; He keeps stroking me, and I know he’s wondering if he’s allowed to start stroking her too. And it does to me, but it’s scary too. I look at him with a look full of longing and he examines me like that night we met in Rishikesh, a look I had not seen for a long time. A look of such psychic thrill, full of originality and mystery and discovery. Is this what needs to happen to evoke this emotion?
Threesome
I want to try a threesome!

We entered the cafe excited, hesitant, apprehensive. We looked to the sides and saw her. She looked a little different but better than the picture she sent us. I looked at him, he looked at me. We smiled at each other and walked towards her. She watched us approach, recognized, smiled a shy smile and waited for us to sit down.


It started off pretty banal. Such an embarrassing call. Where do you live, what do you work for, how long did it take to find parking, what position do you like best. No, it actually came later. Keep chatting, ordering light things, heaviness is not part of this evening.

The alcohol is flowing, three people who within an hour will share an evening of hot sex. A pretty ordinary story overall!


The conversation continues. Each of us is half present, half dreaming. Aware of the trajectory of every drop of saliva ingested. Feel any hair out of place. You can count every particle of air between us and her from how much it is felt.

It seemed to me that there were 8,234 air particles just waiting for us to cross them for the initial contact, but I may have been confused because she was just looking at my man with a “come take me now, baby” look. Maybe actually in a slightly different look, because “Baby” is already an old slang ,like us, and she is barely 30 years old.

And in the process he keeps stroking me, and I know he’s wondering if he’s allowed to start stroking her too. And it turns me on, but it’s scary too. I look at him with a look full of longing and he examines me like that night we met in Rishikesh, a look I had not seen for a long time. A look of such psychic thrill, full of originality and mystery and discovery. Is this what needs to happen to evoke this emotion?

agreed to try threesome
Try threesome “baby” ?

Why open all this good?
Going back with myself back in time. 10 years back in time. Who thought when we got married, when we promised exclusivity to each other, that we would find ourselves in this situation? A young couple, at a dreamy wedding, promise love and trust to each other in front of a few dozen good friends and family who traveled three hours to celebrate with us at our favorite place in the desert.

We felt in the clouds, and I knew with complete confidence that he was the man of my life, that he was the love of my life and all the clichés at once.


We were in love then and we are in love today. Not in love checking V “should-say-it-in-love”. Not like that. In love with full power. I look at him and admit that he chose me over all the women, and he looks at me and thanks for his good fortune every day.

In love with the truth. I’m still attracted to him and think he’s one of the hottest men on earth. He’s still funny to me. His hug is still the main source of comfort I need in my life. I still want to experience my life when he is by my side, giving me a strong hand, and I know it is mutual.

So why? Why open all this good to someone else who will join us? Why look for more thrills? Why look for trouble? These are the questions I have been asking myself in my head since the day we started talking about opening up the relationship. There is such a great fear of the unknown, and the known is good, very good even. So for what ?!


It started when I fell in love with Simon. An event that scared me a lot. How can I be so attracted to and want his best friend so much? After all, only a year ago I married the love of my life. So I used my best tactics – I got even closer to Simon. Not for something to happen, but to find out it’s imperfect and then I got off it.


It did not help. I discovered that Simon was not perfect and wanted him even more. After three years, Gil arrived. To my delight, I only met Gil for a two-day course, during which we did not stop making eyes and then he disappeared from my life.

Then came James, My colleague James that I see every day more than my man Gil. I also approached James because I could not help it, I discovered that he was not perfect and then I added him to us in threesomes almost every evening, in my imagination.

Threesome mystery

Welcome to a world full of magic
From the beginning we agreed that flirting is allowed, so we flirted. We’re both so good at it, so why stop a natural talent you were born with? We then agreed that it was permissible to put others to bed in the imagination.

So imagine. We were incredibly good at that too. Years of experience have led to an extremely horny imagination. There is nothing to do, training brings results.
Then we got to the next stage. Attach or not attach? This is the question.

The truth that at first the discussion was whether or not to open the relationship. We started researching polyamory – but developing relationships with others while you have three little girls at home, sounds impossible.

Who has time to hear about other people’s troubles? Not suitable. Besides, the thought of him falling in love with someone else turns me on, but the thought of falling in love with someone else scares me. And him too.


So maybe just an open relationship? One in which you only have sex with others , but only keep faith with each other? Come on, it’s okay. We talked about it and talked about it, but we did not dare. The thought of him sleeping with someone else while I was wiping poop for the little one was unbearable to me.

But also to think I was now with someone else when he was not part of the situation was difficult. So we realized that we do not want to be alone, and that too, as with most exciting experiences in our lives, we want to experience together.

Threesome?

So a threesome. OK! Cool, exciting, horny. Come on, threesome. But how do you do that? A pair of peripherals who fall asleep at eight in the evening after anesthesia. How the hell do you find someone or someone who wants to join a horny couple who just wants to spice up their sex?

How do you find someone or someone we are both attracted to? Or to him/her? Anyway, will it be a man or a woman?


Because in all of these discussions, we’ve discovered how horribly straight we both are. Most not in fashion. He can’t imagine himself with a man (“What shall we do? Will we play fencing?”), And I really do not understand the thrill of a pair of cymbals when I want to play gong only from the stick alone.


Still, we consulted about that. We found an acquaintance who turns out to be sleeping with couples (who knew it was that common?) And bombarded her with questions. It turns out that women are supposed to be more fluid in their sexuality, or at least more confident in it, so that they feel more comfortable with other women, even if they are straight.

Men were trained to be intimidated by being with another man in bed, so she recommended we start with a woman.

We opened a Tinder account in the form of a couple. “Corona couple 35” we called ourselves. Flattering pictures of buttocks. We blurred all the cellulite. Very horny data on each of us (she: a lover of music and hiking, he: a lover of diving and sleeping), and now waiting.

Then requests begin to emerge. Do right and left with finger. On Tinder, yes? Until the first match arrives. What a crazy thrill. This is, you do not need more than that, you can climax from that.


but no. Corresponding, flirting, imagining, doing all the things we are good at. Who knew it could be even more exciting? And now you have to decide whether to go for it and make an appointment with her. She sounds so adorable. Wondering if she’s going to charm me while she’s coming down on him. Less safe.

threesome?

And here we come to the part where we talk about the middle ground. Manages to get to the moment he looks at me with a look full of initial excitement, and fails to imagine the sequel. Because what will be there? And what if he falls in love with her? What if she’s more pleasurable than me?

Will the experience mean that couple sex, just the two of us alone, will no longer interest us? Is this really-really what we need and want?


On the other hand, precisely from this place, full of love between us, precisely from the place of empathy, attraction and support – we want and can experience such an exciting experience. “Welcome to a world full of magic,” the experienced mine consultant-consultant wrote to me.

Why not experience another such magic? Maybe these very thrills will add excitement to the well-known sex of the two of us together?


After all, all the statistics all indicate that monogamy leads to infidelity, decreased desire, decreased attraction, dissatisfaction from the relationship, sexual dissatisfaction, living together as a compromise, separated because they are not willing to live in a compromise.

And only 30 percent, individual 30 percent manage to live together happily. Only 30 percent pass the human experiment of the last 100 years called ‘monogamy’.

And I think to myself how delightful this release can be. Let myself experience everything, let myself live to the end. Let myself forget and surrender for a moment. Forget responsibility, forget about my life and be in some fantasy that becomes reality.

At the same time I do not forget how amazing my reality is. Full of challenges like any relationship, but amazing. So why add a variable to the equation? And maybe all this fantasy is so exciting as long as it does not come true, and when it does come true it will turn the current reality into a fantasy?


In the absence of an unequivocal and clear answer, I continue to do right and left with my finger. To get horny at the thought of them , and go to bed with him, only the two of us alone. And maybe it’s good enough?

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